Ayahuasca Part 1: My First Night With the Medicine & Why I Felt Called to Go
In this deeply personal and honest episode, Kim begins sharing her ayahuasca journey in Costa Rica—starting with why she felt called to the medicine, what led her there emotionally and spiritually, and what her first night in ceremony was actually like.
This is not an endorsement or invitation to try ayahuasca. It’s a raw, real account of one person’s experience during a pivotal season of healing, grief, and self-discovery.
Kim opens up about childhood trauma she didn’t remember until adulthood, the protective patterns that shaped her life, and the inner searching that eventually led her to explore plant medicine after years of meditation, energy work, and personal development.
In Part 1, she walks you through:
How she first learned about ayahuasca and why it challenged everything she thought she knew about healing
The emotional aftermath of uncovering childhood abuse and suppressed memories
Why traditional healing modalities didn’t feel like enough at that stage of her journey
What it means to feel “called” to the medicine—and how subtle (and surprising) that calling can be
Traveling to Costa Rica, arriving at the retreat, and the safety and structure of the environment
Her first breathwork session and the emotional release that followed
What actually happened during her first night with the medicine (including what didn’t happen)
A powerful physical and intuitive release connected to an old childhood injury
Why everyone’s ayahuasca experience looks completely different
Kim also shares common misconceptions about ayahuasca—especially around fear, loss of control, and horror stories—and explains how her experience was far more gentle, controlled, and awareness-based than she expected.
This episode sets the foundation for the rest of the series. Night two, three, and four—and the deeper emotional and spiritual insights—will be shared in the next episode.
This episode is a personal story, not medical or therapeutic advice
Ayahuasca is not for everyone, and Kim does not advocate or encourage its use
Plant medicine should only be explored responsibly, legally, and with proper guidance
In Ayahuasca Part 2, Kim shares what unfolded during the remaining ceremonies, the emotional depths she reached, and what integration really looks like after the experience.
If this episode resonates with you, or brings up questions, reflections, or emotions, Kim invites you to reach out on Instagram:
@ownyourshift_kim
As always—thank you for being here and for honoring your own healing journey.
